While one thoughts she gonna be lonely and bored when her mentor is not around, she could be wrong at times. Frankly speaking, whenever this boy went back home or was away from work, the classes are exceptionally quiet in some areas. Wouldnt say i am used to the silentness. More towards i am always adapting myself to these situations.

So far, he had been away for a week. Hadnt seen the rest of them as well too. Other than a couple of them. Should i say i had been blessed or should i say i am lucky. In any way, i juz wanna say I am havin a fruitful, yet busy and tiring school vacation break. Busy with skating, song mixing, sleeping, doing classes, wrapping pressies, and lastly busy on mission. BUT BUT BUT, despite i had been so busy n tired, i had been heavily showered with luv in this festive season while tis boy is away. Thank you darlings!

Created a "name" to myself on tues in EP. Laughters, jokes, commotions, shouts, screams. Everything was heard within the one solid hour. Luv it, enjoy it and will miss all these when i embark onto my new class in Jan 09. Why am i not anticipating to the NEW classes?
Reason: Cherish, Memories, Appreciation

Then came wed once again. History repeated. I wouldnt elaborate much but i know for myself that at least i had ended the FINAL wednesday KB class in PM with a remarkable exclamation mark with smiles from the members.

Came thursday, the day where i almost ended up crawling back home. Working from 9.30am to 9.30pm. 12hrs with 6 hrs of hard cardio teaching. Was showered with compliments since morning. Accepted graciously definitely. And i "killed" the thurs kb 7.30pm class in a nice manner. But its a shiok one! Thanks to the class for supporting me since April 3rd 2008 till now. Seeing them grow, seeing them improve, thats really something that worth to be applauded.

Officially a 1 yr old instructor. What to say! Thanks for the support and encouragement during the full yr. Thanks to those who had lent me their shoulders, hands and ears when i needed them most. Thanks to my mentor, fellow instructors and members definitely. I wouldnt be here if u hadnt been here too. Not many how things might change in the upcumin yr or so, I sincerely hope everyone would be showered with luv, care and good health in the yr of 2009.

Merry Xmas to everyone!

Luv,
Edlyn

P.s: Someone told me that my Xmas would not be lonely despite i gonna cover class. I take their words. Looking forward!!! = )

Would you choose to ignore or would you choose to believe?
I had walked past them and i had heard those words. Should i ever try to ignore and pretend that i din hear them or should i ever learn to accept those words?

Letting it go and be a happier person. Do such sentence exist? Is it significantly true that one would be happier if one tend to let go her burden and unhappiness. Frankly speaking, ever i myself do not know the root of the problem.

But back to square, i am still thankful that i still have a group of friends who are always standing by me and watchin over me. Thank you.

and not forgetting the sunday group in TS. These ladies are juz too remarkable in making my SUNDAY. They really can make me smile lots..........

ANyway..... dun worry for me, darlings.....I'm tryin and really trying. I wish to be happy and back to my old self.

Climbing out of my unhappiness is a tough journey.......

How should i explain myself out here?
Can i let my voices to be heard over here?
I dunoe...

My mind is running wild again....
breakdown........ tears.... almost everythin are here....

WHen will u be remembered by others?
When will ur name be remembered 1st by others?
When will they be available when u nid them?

I chose the path to move on...... but had i really moved on???
Upcumin bd: only 1 wish is to be happier.....

Had fallen sick for the 1st time in this yr. I hate this kind of feeling. Body juz dont feel good. Yucks. Everything is turning upside now. Physically, emotionally, almost....

But while all these r goin wrong, someone manage to brighten up my day....

YEst was childrens' day. Got a surprise children's day gift from my god-mummy.... saw a big sunflower when i open the locker yest.... ooh... so sweet of her.... been quite some time since i had a private chat with her..... in fact missin her lots...

Next, supposingly thought it was a PH and no one would show up in the class. But end up the class was pretty packed at TS yest... 16 each for both KB and NB.... and most of them are my own regulars.. We had a wackin yucky good time.....= )

And definitely the final moment where i got to go singin with huimin... Its been like ancient years since we been talkin about this topic. Always want to go, but time dont permit... And finally we go... It seems to be a retro session for us...... all the good old songs..... yeah!!!! And definitely the small tiny gossips of some pple.. hAHAH....

Thank you for brightenin the day of mine.....

P.S: Feelin cold and weak..>.... To go or not to go????

Been so emo recently, guess all is in due to the cant go swimmin or sun-tanning sydrome. No time or the rain juz spoil everything. CRAP!

Knew i wun be happy if i were to go cover that class. And yah, i am damn right. Dunoe wassup with these pple lah. But heck them. I had oreadi given up hope on them! If they r dere to have fun, sorry that i cant give them. To me, its jz serious workout. At least i gt to brighten the day of the rest of the members.

Back in TS... urm.. my body turned all the way down. Begin to feel drowsy, sleepy, aching muscles, dizzyness... almost everything..... but still gotta pull myself through. Could be my blood pressure was rushed up by those pple. Thankfully those pple were understanding, esp. my kb pple. Thanks babes. Steps was fun other than this high egoistic lady who claims tis and that. I had tried but u......

Collapsed on bus and further on bed later..........

SUN morning was a fun time... Wasnt able to tink of any routine before that..... so was like panicking when i reach TS.. luckily my mind manage to force outside out just before the clock strikes 9.20am. So tada.... send the class round and round.. Goody news is the class shoots to 18 today. In an unexpectedly manner. It finally went back to the old record when i did not find any replacement. If only it could maintain or gets better.....

tried something new with the two crowds. Send them shoutin in pain. Got no idea where i get my power from. But then....... they really perk me up.....

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In some way or another... when you are busy, u would not really think so much.... But once u are alone, everything will start to breeze right in front of you. You begin to think how how how..... all the negative stuffs would flow.... you begin to get so emoooooooooooooo.......

SO fast tml school begins.. I AM NOT PREPARED! ESp. for my thurs mid term test..SHUCKS!!!

Feelin grouchy for the day. Feeling restless as well. Wanna enjoy, wanna go and suntan... but so many things happening... I am bored!!!!

So hard to understand people. Would you agree? Esp. when people are shutting themselves from you. When they dont open up, you never know whats going on.

Hope tml goes smooth. SERIOUSLY!!!!

I juz wanna do things that make me happy. Thats d min. i ask for.

I never expect i would tell her everything. But the discussion just started unknowingly. Its not an awkward discussion. But i should still thank her for the encouragement.

ON my way home yest, i were on the fone with C. As usual, she always shares stories with me about those pple. But in some way or another, i cant be bothered. Not bcuz i am having some attitude problem, it seems more towards i know what is meant by constructive vs. rubbish words. The words might be alittle hurting, but i will jz accept them humbly.

Tis morning, i din anticipate much from the crowd. Deep from my heart, i dun expect the turnout from these pple. TO me, i juz wanna do my best shot. And everythin is either a WoW or a Sink. U make it or u doom it! Started off ok.. but then towards the end, i'm runnin out of stuffs... end up tada......

But my most enjoyable moment would still be the small little outlet. Pple are nice and i enjoy my moment with them. SO glad the attendance is consistent despite its small. My weakness equal the strength of the others, but my strength is definitely an edge over them. So juz push your way through and go all out!!!!!!!!!!

JIayou bah!!!! U will shine!!!